as anxious as I felt last week, is as calm as I feel this week. I think this is partly due to the amount of homework and other activities I’ve planned to keep myself busy this week. I’ve had to fight the urge to just lay on the couch or on her bed all day, but I have to get my work done for class on Friday and Saturday.
I have a Celebrate Betsy get together planned for Thursday, the day of her death. Right now, about 27 people are coming. I might need to order some more food. I always worry that I won’t have enough. But I’m pleased that so many are able to make it to support me and remember her with me and my family. I am going to have a balloon launch, if they want they can write a message then we’ll let ’em go. I think it will be a nice way to remember her.
I feel good about it now. I’m tired now because of all the homework. But relieved that it’s all almost done. Just one more thing to do, then get ready for the party.
I just can’t believe a year has gone by, how did it go so fast. I miss her voice.